Sunday, December 20, 2009

Gotta love those pugs.

I admit right here, right now, that Jessica Peyton gets goosebumps when she watches "Extreme Makeover: Home Edition". I might feel like a little sucker, but I can't deny it any longer. ha.

But lets get to my report:
I have been goggle-ing my daily brewing emotions. Once in awhile my crusted lips will literally crack a smile. I came across pictures and some darlin' whatnots that seemed to jolt me at another level. For awhile my posts will be composed of random stories: so enjoy!?

My family once owned a pug named Popeye. He had quite a life. We knew an older man in our neighborhood, that had a son who was a Catholic priest. His son was growing ill and so he decided to join him and move closer to his son. We gladly adopted his beloved pooch.
The old man had smothered Popeye with as much love, and treats, a dog could ask for. We had a lot to live up to. Popeye was fed two hotdogs and a hunk of cheese each and every day of his previous life. So, naturally, we needed to stop this pup's addiction and introduce him to 'real' dog food. This, of course, was my mother's mission, it must be that "motherly intuition". : ]
Popeye was the first dog for our family He immediately became our life, and of course, the king of the house. He lived on the wild side, like every pug does. One midday, Popeye was swept up by a van, and stolen out of sight. For weeks we searched and hunted for any trace of him. Weeks later a woman carrying Popeye came to our house. She told us she found this pug in a truckers bar miles away. She recognized him because of the abundance of posters we covered the City with.
I still wonder what Popeye must have been thinking throughout his whole excursion. Did he meet a clad of truckers who fell in love with him? Did he get a sip of beer as a daily treat? : ] I guess I'll never know, but it's nice to wonder.
He had an accident with our garage door, years later. The door started closing and hit his two shoulder blades. Maybe you know, but pugs already have stocky built structures and are susceptible to bone and hip problems. He no longer could climb steps and romp around, like the dog he had always been. I know that no matter what the limitations he was given, his spirit continued. I feel so blessed to live in a family that appreciates and yearns for the love of animals. I only hope that the pets we have brought in, have felt loved just as much as I have.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

# 1
My newest idea is to have, at least, a weekly "Pic of Adorableness". Sometimes you just need a fluffy or chubby reminder that there are still cute things in this world. Other than those creepy Teletubbies.
You know I'm right.


I'm still deciding a theme or direction I want my blog to have. I want validity of my convictions and of my words, so, I guess, I decided to just "blog" my thoughts, post poems or sporadic jolts of phrases, that are currently overwhelming my journal. Time bears no real meaning; some of the writings were written a month to three years ago.

So here I go, my first poetry post:

"Untitled"

They still ask.
Like I would tell them.

1...2...3...

Take me, Abba. Anyone?
I wasn't really going to say anything. What was there to say?
I wasn't trying to really do anything. At least I think.
Me? No, not me. Though wanting to end.
Don't get me wrong, Life can be a precious thing. So I have read.

The knife just sat there, staring me down.
My dear old friend,
Sweet deadly strokes; tender movements.
Yet, you're still a companion all the same.

But the bottle just sat there, staring me down.
No excuse. Screaming!
My name. Use me. Use.
Only to transfer the pain.

1...2...3...

The more I looked, the more I wasn't there.
I was fading, so fast.
I had to accept.
Too deep to retrieve.
Though they tried their best.

Persistent symptoms,
After a traumatic event? Ha.
Ninety-nine wasn't enough?
Did you really think you could do better?
Sooner or later you'll crash, and burn, and,
Fall, choked by the chains that you wrapped.
Tied so neatly around your weak pathetic legs.

Don't worry, you have done "good":
tried to follow demands,
Please any, thank plenty.
But you still hear it.
It'll never be enough-
That's my poison.

1...2...3...

Don't come too close,
Don't speak so sweet, and soft.
I don't need, I don't want you.
Can't handle it, those compliments.
I don't believe you, never will.
It hurts too much. You'll just leave.
I move, move quick. Quicker.

1...2...3...

They still ask.
But what to say?


More will come. They're aren't all depressing. But a lot were written during depressing times, so that may be a trailing theme. Till then.


Monday, November 9, 2009

First of Many.

This is one of the many quick rants:
  • It would be really nice if my school wouldn't block any, and all, sites that contains pictures. It totally defeats the purpose of using my subscribed blogs for art resources. I understand that the public school administrators are trying to avoid lawsuits by "protecting" children from risque photos, but you should only censor so much. The art students need internet assistance. It is the Technology Age! I am against censorship, but control of availability is different, as long as it doesn't become detrimental to the ones that need it.
I need my photos of fucking awesome embroidery designs.
(It's pretty important.)




  • More To Come...